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– psychic “symptomen” noemen. Ook gevoel van voor muziekbox staan, als bijrijder in auto, etc.
In a twin flame connection, very intense psychic phenomena happen. In contrast with the popular belief that you are a “split” soul, I think twin flames are two souls with the exact same frequency. When twin flames meet, they start vibrating together due to laws of physics that are, I think, similar to constructive interference, which is too strong to escape from. This is how I experienced it. There is literally magnetism between the two of you. Not necesarily magnetism in the psychological sense where you want to be around that person. This is how most people use the word “magnetism”: as a metafor. No, with twin flames, there is literally a physical magnetism, due to laws of physics. You literally start vibrating together, like when you pull the string of a guitar and another string may vibrate along. In twin flame terms, this is called a “soul merge”.
So: all this happens automatically, without free will. And then two things will happen:
- Allignment with soul (kundalini activation). The interference creates SUCH a strong magnetic force that both are automatically pulled into this soul frequency, because this soul frequency becomes much stronger than the “normal” reality. (With “normal reality” I mean your individual body and your individual psyche). Because this frequency becomes SO strong, your kundalini starts automatically. As a result, all of the chakra’s are ignited, and you will experience lots of psychic phenomena. You may experience other realities and alterted states of consciousness (often refered to 5D consciousness, unity consiousness, Christ consciousness, God consciousness, etc.), especially once the kundalini has reached the higher chakra’s that connect you to higher dimensions. You will start to feel higher frequencies, especially when the energy of the kundalini is active in the higher chakra’s. You may suddenly be thrown into psychic abilities, without even practicing them (such as “channelling”, clairvoyance, claircognizance etc.). You will likely see lots of so-called “angel numbers” (sometimes so much into your face all day long that it may become overwhelming and very annoying), you may experience things that may be guidance (I have, though I am still not very certain whether it was guidance, but I believe so), or see very (!) vivid and emotional images that are possibly from past lives, etc. So: you will experience things in higher dimensions, beyond this space and time reality on earth. The higher states of consciousness (Christ consciousness), are experienced as extreme bliss. There is no other feeling as fulfilling as this. It is like finally coming home, spiritually. Your twin is a portal to this, in the first place because of this constructive interference. Some will therefore project this feeling onto the person itself (their twin), instead of the energy / soul frequency, which is also present in themselves. On the internet I have heard people say that sometimes only 1 of the twins goes through a kundalini activation, and the other (often considered “the runner”) doesn’t. Many belief that this is therefore always the case: that only the chaser will go through a kundalini awakening. I can tell you: I am a runner and I feel and experience everything.
- A psychic attack, where the feelings and thoughts and “ego energies” of your twin enter your system. Since you vibrate together due to this (I suspect) constructive interference, the emotions, feelings, desires and thoughts of your twin will automatically enter your system, whether you like it or not. This can be experienced as hell. You will feel the “earthly” (ego) feelings of your twin, that are NOT part of the soul frequency. You will sometimes also feel this at a distance, depending on how strong the energetic merge is. Especially at the beginning this can be very strong.
- It can be difficult to know who is who. And your twin’s feelings can be extremely toxic to you, and your twin may then suddenly become the least attractive person in the world. You may even feel like vomiting energetically. Your body may even be used as a “channel” to vomit their toxic energies out of their system.
- There will be some kind of energetic battle between your energies. I believe this is the purpose of such a connection: you are internally pushed to set boundaries and stand up for yourself.
- Pushing out the ego of your twin mauu actually pull you into your own soul frequency (if anger is needed!)
- You may even feel your twin having sexual fantasies about you. This can be traumatic, depending on context.
You are pulled out of your body, your consciousness is pulled (inside your head, which feels like a vacuum hose is in your head), your eyes are magnetically locked.
Distance doesn’t matter; 5D.
Switching between realities, which is driven by the strength of your own ego AND that of your twin (also at a distance!!). –> makes the kundalini kriya’s incredibly painfull (like stabs; heart attack).
“Push and pull” dynamics: switching from dual to nondual consiousness
What often happens, is that the chaser is somehow (consciously or subconsiously) convinced that the fealing of coming home and the spiritual bliss of the Christ consiousness is found in the other twin. So, they have an “outward” energy towards their twin, with a craving. This craving can come from various psychological (ego) wounds, but all stem from the belief that the other person is the solution to their pain. And this has been the case at the beginning, where the soul merge created this feeling automatically. But, to find this feeling of bliss within themselves through actual “inner work”, is a very hard thing to do because it requires to let go of any ego-based fears and come into nondual consiousness. This “inner work” goes far beyond the normal trauma processing that most people do in their lives. It involves really switching from a dual to a nondual perspective. If there is too much craving for the twin, they are actually energetically pulling away from their own soul frequency, and switch from a nondual to a dual perspective. Doing so, the pains in the chakra’s (caused by previous trauma’s) will suddenly be ignited, and will only stop if they are able to release trauma’s and allign with their own soul again. This pain can be felt in the chakra’s like stabbing knives, feeling of a heart attack (I’ve heard stories of people calling an ambulance), shortness of breath, extreme dizziness, the feeling like your consiouesness is pulled out of your head with a vacuum hose (this almost feels like you become psychotic). These sensations are very extreme, and in my experience very underestimated by people who have not gone through this. It is a pain like no other. “Needing” your twin does not come from wanting to be in a relationship with them, but from the intense trauma pains that are activated in your chakra’s and consiousness that you are not yet able to solve yourself, so you want to grip on to your twin. So, I believe the wish to be around your twin flame is not coming from “I want to be around you because I love you so much” (what most people consider a soulmate), but rather “I need to be around you because if I am not, I am literally energetically tortured”. This torture is very extreme and unpleasent, so sometimes twins will contact each other out of necessity, and not necessarily because they want to. However, often at least 1 of the twins (or both) also want to be around their twin because they love him/her as a person. But, in my view, what distinguishes twin flames, is that they are forced to contact each other. This can be traumatic, depending on the context (for me it was; it felt similar to sexual abuse. I will explain this more detailed in other articules)
Ergens ook nog onderscheid maken tussen “wanting to be around them” soms wel degelijk zo is, maar niet per se in earthly terms zoals sommige chasers vaak willen. Wel in de vorm van “unity”, maar dus als een soort van “vriendschap”, en niet als seksuele relatie. Pas als chaser dat kan loslaten, stopt de psychic attack voor de runner, en wil de runner ook vanuit EIGEN wil bij de chaser zijn, en niet alleen maar vanuit dwang en controleverlies (omdat ie een marionetpop is van de chaser). Die aantrekking (unity) kan de runner wel degelijk hebben. Maar is dus ANDERS dan wat de chaser voelt: de chaser wil een relatie gebaseerd op zijn/haar trauma’s, omdat de energie van de runner die “gaten” in chakra’s kan opvullen. Ook vertellen over dat je elkaars “gaten”/trauma’s opvult, door elkaar naar je toe te trekken in de vorm van psychic attack, en marionetpop gevoel.
Coming in allignment with soul, can also mean becomin angry with your twin. Becoming angry with them, you may heal yourself and even bring you back to your own soul frequency (which, at the start you only experienced when you were around your twin, so it may feel confusing to feel this energy again when you are angry with them. But: this connection is NOT about a relationship, but allignment with the soul frequency that is already within you! I believe many people think they are in a so-called “false twin flame”, while actually they are just a “regular” twin flame. I don’t believe in “false” twin flames: since the soul merge is a kind of proof you are the same soul frequency, right? The “false” term just means you never really understood what the twin flame connection was all about: alligning with yourself, and not necessarily with this other person. The soul is a copy, so yes this other person is a portal for you to experience Christ consiousness, but your twin can still have any kind of personality here on earth that you have to learn lessons from. You may end up in a loving relationship with soul allignment, OR you may experience soul allighment by standing up for youself if your twin has a toxic personality at earth level. Same difference. I believe there is no set outcome for twin flames; it is perhaps completely random.
Ook ergens zetten (mbt die gaten opvullen): dat dat chasen en runnen afhankelijk is van wie het meest cravet naar de ander, en dat dat per trauma kan verschillen. Soms zal de 1 meer chasen en craven naar de ander (de gehele jounrey), maar soms kan ineens de runner in een trauma terecht komen waardoor ie per ongeluk (door duaal bewustzijn) cravet naar de twin. OF die andere twin kan dan automatisch getrokken worden naar de runner, ookal cravet de runner niet meteen naar de chaser maar heeft ie extreem veel pijn en schreeuwt ie om hulp (ik was ziek, paniek, en P MOEST contact opnemen met mij, ookal wilde ik dat niet; iig niet met mijn verstand, maar energetisch had ik wel IEMAND nodig, dus trok ik vacuum aan hem ofzo, omdat ik de heling nog niet in mijzelf kon vinden).
Vraag mbt dit: ik was mij niet op P aan het focusen… Zou het dan wel kunnen zijn dat als P niet contact had opgenomen met mij, dat ik dan uiteindelijk WEL op hem focuste, misschien zelfs automatisch (met chase/limerence energie)? wat gebeurt er daar allemaal? Want is het dan wel zo dat P dan telkens heel bewust aan mij dacht, en de heling in mijn energie probeerde te zoeken, vanuit duaal bewustzijn? Waarom was die “chase” voor hem anders dan toen ik “chasede” op hem (blijkbaar? of chasede ik wel?)?
The other twin, the so-called runner, will be influenced by this “craving” of the chaser. I deliberately say “influenced”, because it influenced their behaviour, allthough they may not feel the energy
If my twin wants to share something he is struggling with, he wants something from me. This creates a dualistic “energy”/vibe, so that his ego energy is transferred to my energy field, as a form of psychic attack. If he tries to solve it himself, I will not feel it (DENK IK!). But whenever he is projecting something onto ME, I feel it, as something very toxic. So, I just NEED to run away, out of self protection. If I don’t, my consiousness will be taken over, and I will be bombarded with very heavy, alien energies that completely take me over, which is extremely scary. I LITERALLY lose my whole self, so I LITERALLY also cannot communicate any longer, or protect myself, go against him. He is basicaly taking over my system. So, whatever he is projecting on me (based on what he is feeling internally; it is not dependent on whether it is spoken into words; that doesn’t make any difference! Also texts can contain toxic energies!), I will be taken over and he will controll me (hence: I experienced a psychic form of sexual abuse). No longer able to think my own thoughts/opinions; I was forced to say whatever he wanted me to say, etc. If I tried to protect myself by breaking the energetic merge, this would always go way to quickly, and I was not just pull away from him, but also from myself (with vacuum feeling in head; very scary). The trick is then to pull away from the other person without actually pulling away from your own energy. But, practically impossible when there is more than (zuigt uit duim) 60% merge.
Solution to push/pull = retreat energy towards yourself (so you don’t project your energies into their system, as a psychic attack) AND/OR work on the toxicity of your energies by doing trauma work. The first could be obtained through going into nondual realization. The last by going to therapy, for instance. Hmmm… Nog over nadenken: we blijven mensen, met emoties, dus dan zal je altijd push en pull krijgen, zelfs al heb je aan “trauma verwerking gedaan”. Het ego moet gewoon “weg”, dus nonduaal bewustzijn (ego heeft nml ook zware emoties; wat voor toxisch push zal blijven zorgen). Maar New world Allstar beweert hier van alles over, vandaar….
I believe the so-called “bubble love” phase is where both are catapulted into multidimensional consiousness, but the energy of the chaser is waaaay too dominant and is controlling what is done, where the DM is not able to set boundaries (so this could be sexual). So the DM may also experience the bliss of the 5D consiousness, but since it combined with the ego energy of the DF, it can be both heaven and hell if the DM is forced to do things that they do not want to (this obviously depends on context!). I believe the DM is forced to set boundaries; this may be his/her lesson.
From observation, I belief that when the chaser is too much focused on their twin (through the belief that their twin is the solution to their pain), the energy of the chaser is pushed onto the runner, and this can be VERY toxic for both the runner and the chaser:
- When the chaser focuses too much on their twin, they may even experience a “vacuum” feeling inside their head and consiousness. I believe that this happens because they pull away from their own soul frequency, by focusing too much on the earthly manifestation of their twin.
- The runner may be taken over by the energy of the chaser, and may become a “puppet”, controlled by the ego (emotions and thoughts) of the chaser. Their consiousness may be taken over, especially when the energy of the chaser is SO intense, that it consumes the runner, and the runner may completely lose control over their actions. This may feel like: extreme and extermely deep pain in chakra’s (which can be felt like a heart attack) In extreme cases, this may even result in being forced to perform sexual acts that you do not want to, or contact them.
- Only once the chaser focuses their thoughts and emotions on themselves and KNOW that they do not need their twin, they will finally be able to stop any psychic attack on the runner, and the runner may actually enjoy being around the chaser (who is not chasing anymore), since there is only a “neutral” state of Christ consiousness, without the pushing and pulling from ego-based desires.
o, sometimes there is a craving towards the other twin (the “chaser”), and sometimes not at all (the “runner”).
Pulling away from this soul frequency merge is impossible to do without pulling away from your own soul frequency (because the magnetism in the constructive interference is too strong). Where “pulling away” is based on intention, so this could either be physical (suddenly stepping away from them), or for instance trying to block them on your phone. If you try to pull away and try to distance yourself from your twin, you will automatically pull yourself apart from this soul frequency, and this will create VERY intense sensations: you lose your consciousness (like a vacuum hose inside your head is sucking away your consciousness), or very extreme pains in your chakra’s (like heart attack feeling), and other things. The pain and phychic sensations are HUGE. So, both twins are physically/psychically forced to keep contact with each other, at least at the beginning… even if they don’t want to.
You may not be able to express your own thoughts, or block them (even if you want to); you may be forced to say or do things that you don’t agree with. This can be a traumatizing experience for yourself, but even especially so if you act in ways that you don’t agree with and your surroundings don’t believe you (in my case: the (sexual) desires of my twin controlled my behaviour, and my partner at the time did not believe it. This “third party” traumatised me, and I would have had a very difficult time alligning with my own soul frequency if I had stayed with him. But I wanted to; he was so far the love of my life. So, often “third parties” are considered a hickup to “union”, but in this case “union” would not have meant a sexual relationship with my twin, but rather soul allignment that would have been very challenging with a partner who ridiculed everything.)
I have never wanted a sexual, romantic relationship with my twin. I still don’t. I do want the union energy, with a friendship as perceived by other people. But this is only possible if he stops wanted a sexual, romantic relationship with me. I am not “running” from a relationship with “him” as a person. I know what I want, but I am constantly being pulled into his nondual desires of a sexual romantic relationship, which I experience as a psychic attack. Yes, I am running from the energy, because I associate it with being swallowed by his sexual energies. I have experienced that if I allow myself to be really angry with him and say “BACK OFF with your sexual energies!”, then my throat and heart chakra open up, and I start alligning with my soul again. This goes very much against many of the twin flame theories out there. But many of the theories out there are only from the chaser perspective, that I so so disagree with.
Once you surrender, and no longer resist to this magnetism, you merge together, and both are, as a result, automatically pulled into their higher states of consciousness: their soul. They will experience bliss, source consiousness, unity with “God”, etc. It partly feels like drugs. This is what other people who’ve had a kundalini awakening (but without a twin flame) ALSO experience, so this is part of the “divine consciousness”. This is the “love” that many people describe they feel for their twin flame. So, I see a twin flame as a portal to this divine consciousness and bliss.
- twin flame often not your type
- often huge age gap
- opposite characters (can be perceived as unattractive at an earth/ego perspective) –> yin and yang
- switching between extreme attraction to extreme repulsion (caused by switching between source and ego consciousness). The attraction is in the first place perceived as “divine”. God-like. Your twin is a portal to “union” with the divine; not necessarily a romantic (sexual) partner (though it CAN be, and one or both twins may confuse this with the “earthly” perceptions of “relationship” (you and me)).
- ?? He/she is NOT a partner; NOT someone else; he/she is YOU you are the same, in frequency. And, everything in the connection is driven by energies and frequencies, so holding on to the idea that this other person is a different person, create a toxic energetic dynamics.
- Energetic vampirism, when trying to heal by focusing on your twin?? –> need for distance and detox (e.g. with trauma work combined with kundalini work; trauma work is not alone, I think, because awakening is something beyond…)
Sensations:
- pulled out of your body (literally; like being a co-driver, and the driver suddenly steers to the left and you are smacked in to the door)
- entity entering your body (like you are pregnant with another being, but not just in the womb). Feels like you are standing in front of a music installation with a loud base, but no sound, and you feel emotions that are definitely not yours.
- you feel their laugh on your face (NOT like mirroring / empathy!), etc.
- Drugs (ego death + source consciousness) –> feels like EXTREME amounts of neurotransmitters / hormones
- The energy of either twin can cause a “pull” in the other person towards them (this energy is an ego energy; present in only 1 twin; NOT soul/source consiousness, so it is anything that is NOT part of the soul, i.e. trauma). The other twin can then experience the loss of free will, being forced to do/say things they don’t necessarily agree with (depending on what they are forced to, this can have a sort of neutral impact, or it can be very traumatic). Or they experience a block, and are “overwritten” by the more dominant twin, and they are not able to do what they want to do themselves.
–> hence I don’t believe in the idea of “karmic twin flame” –> a “karmic twin flame” is still a “twin flame” in the sense of same soul frequency, so they are also pulled towards each other, but the things they are forced to do may traumatic, creating the preception that they are “karmic twin flames”. But the soul merge may still result in feelings of bliss and divine consciousness. So, my belief is that they are ALSO “normal” twin flames. - Polarised energy –> one twin has lowest chakra’s activated, while the other twin has the higher ones activated (this may constantly swap, within seconds). –> theory: pingala and ida are being balanced, until both twins are able to balance BOTH themselves (yin and yang; feminine and masculine; ida and pingala), so they can experience source consciousness WITHOUT the merge –> “seperate unity consciousness”. –> this complete inner balance (“union with self”) feels like energies are going up AND down, and like you have a apple shaped energy field around you, and source consciousness, but no longer merged with your twin.
Misconceptions:
– “A twin flame relationship is just a toxic relationship with nothing psychic.” No. You are spiritually forced to come into allignment with your soul frequency. For some this means letting go of old trauma’s, and for some this means setting boundaries. However, this can be part of any kind of relationship. In a twin flame relationship, this has a very psychic component, that even goes on at a distance, which is completely ignored/disregarded by many nonbelievers, who say “this is nonesense, it is just a toxic relationship with a narcissist”. My ex even said “I’m sure you believe all of this is real, but I just don’t, I’m allowed to not believe it, right?”.
– “you can just break the connection at any time” / “just block him/her” / “just forget him/her”.